You either do or you don't...

...there is no in between with half marathon training. I want to be fully prepared in what I am about to do on March 11th, so there is no way in Hell I am skipping any runs that are on my schedule. As y'all know, I am weeks deep into Jamie Eason's LiveFit 12 week program, and there are so many days I either want to pick one or the other: the run or the weights. Both are hard in their own ways. Lifting is hard because well, those weights get heavy, duh! Running, I hit the mental block of not stopping, keep running, your feet may be on fire from how hot your body is right now, but that is okay. Not gonna kill you, only make you stronger, right? "Unless you puke, faint or die, keep going", "Sweat is fat crying". Not gonna lie to ya, I tell myself all of these when that mental road block pops up. It seems to pop up about mile 3.75/4. That's right, that is NOT a typo. The max on my schedule I've run thus far is 5 miles. Tomorrow, is another 5 miler and lifting via Jamie's plan. Oh and Thursday? I get to run 6 (SIX!!!!!) miles. Last time I checked, that was .1 miles shy of a 10K. Because I'm sick in the head and just wanna say I did it, I will run that extra .1 miles to make it an even 10K. Last time I ran a 10K on a treadmill? OOOOOOOOO somewhere between "check out my banging body with zero stretch marks on my tummy since I don't have a baby" and "training for my first 10K" about 1 year ago. (*Side note: could have gotten it much worse, I only have 8.25 squiggly lines on the tummy and yes I will flaunt them in the bikini this Summer...with my 6 pack, BOO YA!*)

So far, I'm pretty proud of my determination. I haven't missed a day on my training schedule with either LiveFit or half marathon training. And let me tell you another thing that doesn't help the mental block when I'm running - the heat! My gym is small, its near my house (aka, the country *insert banjo here*), it's cheap and affordable, has all the right equipment I need, and the thermostat is constantly set to 71 degrees. YES! SEVENTY ONE DEGREES FAHRENHEIT. Add the other sweaty bodies running,stepping,gliding it up in the cardio room, and you've got one very sweaty floor to clean up (Yuck! I'll stick with wiping mandarin oranges off my sons butt, thanks very much). Not only is it obviously hot in there, but I'm a sweater anyways. Luckily there is 1 giant floor fan that I seem to get lucky with every time and I grab it and plug it in near the treadmill I plan to slave away on. I should ask them to turn the thermostat down, but 71 is such a random number, I know they do it for money saving purposes. When my schedule gets to me having to run 8 and up miles, I'm going to have to take it outside - mama can't die of heat stroke in January. Oh and I've tried to turn it down to a more respectable gym temperature, but they've got that shizz locked. Smart people, no? Im sure that's part of their joy when they come to work - "lets see who drops of heat stroke first".

On that note..I'm off to run & lift :)

I'm stronger than yesterday

I'm going to open this blog with a question- do any of you who go to church, notice that when you go, the message always seems to pertain to what is going on in your life at the moment? It ALWAYS seems to happen and I have to laugh to myself and praise God that I came, because I need some help. With all the things that have been going on in my life lately, my soul felt a lot more at ease. The message that was being preached yesterday: DEALING WITH STRUGGLES- HA! Sounds familiar?

Now- back to the nitty gritty. WELCOME TO MONDAY! I am going into this week positive and upbeat and optimistic. I am actively/aggressively looking for a job that will be a great fit into my life and I actually have something that's come up. It's a position for a Health/Weight loss consultant and I have a webinar/phone conference that explains more about it on Tuesday. I'm sort of skeptical of it, just because in the back of my mind, I think it might be one of those scams, BUT I'm trying to be hopeful about it since it would be a great fit for my life and what I would be happy doing. I will be sure to let everyone know how it went on my Wednesday morning post. I have also applied for a consultant position for Jenny Craig near my apartment, and I think that would just be such a rewarding and fun job. A representative will be calling me if I am a match, so say some prayers :)

Not only that, I have a sit down planned with my boss regarding the nanny position for her 2 year old daughter tomorrow, so I will fill you all in on that :) It would really be a great position, but I have 3 reserves:
1. If the pay will be enough. I have a feeling the position would be less than 8 hours a day and if so, I am praying my boss offers me more pay to compensate.
2. My boss is very strict on what her daughter eats (organic, no processed sorta thing, which I can TOTALLY respect since I am conscious of what I eat), and then her sister (who just so happens to work in our office), is very picky on the activities that my bosses daughter partakes in. I have a lot of fun things in mind (parks, trips to the zoo, crafts, etc.), so I'm hoping that I can live up to the standards.
And lastly, I've never been a nanny as a job position. I don't know why the fact that I've never done it before scares me, but I guess it's that unknown/doubting myself that comes out. Truthfully, I think I would ROCK at the position. I don't have a problem with kids and honestly, I have a lot of fun seeing things through kids eyes and just having fun with them...BUT...it's the "What ifs" that make me nervous. Like what if the child has a complete meltdown (which COULD and probably will happen at some point) and all she wants is her mom? I just have to take a deep breath and know that it's new, different, and I can do it and to QUIT doubting myself! Can anyone relate? Do you ever doubt yourself? This also pertains to workout out- sometimes when I set out to do a large number of miles on Tread, I doubt that I can finish when I've proved to myself time and time again, I CAN do anything I put my mind to!


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Workout today consisted of 2 miles and strength training with my legs. Yesterday Nick (since it's no secret anymore of what his name is :) ), was so worn out from his day at work yesterday (he's on a 8 day straight work week, BLAH!), he opted we rescheduled the run/ride to today. So total, I will have run about 7 miles! WOO HOO!!! Theeeeen we're coming home to Buffalo burgers & sweet potato fries!! MMMMM. I got them at Trader Joes, and Nick has always loved buffalo burgers. Whenever we go to his native Colorado, he gets them whenever he can. It's very rare we find buffalo burgers on the menus here in California. I am actually VERY excited, cause this whole week, Spring will grace us with it's presence. 70 degrees all across the board baby! Even the weekend is lookin uh-mazing! Am I the only one who plans for the weekend to come when it's only Monday?

Have a beautiful, POSITIVE, and amazing Monday gorgeous readers!