Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Prayer request

It would be a lot to me, if everyone could say a prayer for Nick and I. Nick is interviewing for a job that would basically be a promotion, and it would really help us financially and personally. He interviews tomorrow morning, and I couldn't be more ecstatic!

Job news: My lovely new job, as gotten more active, A-YO! The first 2 days, I twiddled my thumbs and searched high and low for things to get my hands on. Today I completed my first 2 REAL tasks that kept me busy all day. Can I get an 'amen'?! This made the day go by a lot quicker and better and made me a whole lot happier.

Workout news: I was a bit naughty and skipped my morning workout to be with my 'Soon to be Promoted' (thinking positive thoughts) husband 1 extra hour in bed, as he had the day off today. Tomorrow, I will be trying my plan out I referred to on yesterday's blog. I am going to try to be at the gym NO LATER than 4:50. That way I can get in 25-30 minutes of cardio and 20 minutes of strength training and I'll be sittin pretty. Wish me luck with that! It's hard enough getting out of my warm and cozy house at 5! This means, I really gotta move it when that annoying buzzing clock goes off at 4:30.

'Favorites' news: I know this is random, but at the moment, I am following, nay, OBSESSED with a blogger over the pond. I can't stop reading her blog, and her boyfriends family is in Blackburn. That's right, BLACKBURN! A couple blogs ago, I mentioned how I have long lost family in this quaint side of England. Small world, no? Here is her blog is you wanna follow: . Here are some of my favorite pics of the day to end this bloggie poo! Keep it real homies and don't forget to send a prayer up for my honey


Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Life update and such

Hello beautiful, lovely readers. I do apologize for the lack of blogs these past 2 days. I have been quite the busy girl.

On Monday, I started my new job as a receptionist (what else would I be? ;) ). Today was day 2, and I am having a hard time getting used to the schedule and finding time to blog. I used to have a good 45 minutes to catch up on blogs and blog myself, but by the time I get home from the gym in the morning, I only have MAYBE 10 minutes before I gotta go to work. Not only that, my gym time has been cut down to 30 minutes TOPS before I have to head back home to get ready for work. I start 30 minutes before I was at the last job, which isn't bad, but it still throws a wrench in my morning.

Next week I start my REAL work shift which I actually prefer. Right now I'm working from 8-5, and next week, it'll start my 7-4 schedule. That means I won't be able to go to the gym in the AM's, sadly. BUT, Nick has agreed to go to the gym with me after work, this makes things much better cause we will get to spend time together while sweating our hiney's off. I know some of you are thinking 7 AM is waaaay too early to start work (let alone, the time Im gonna have to wake up to get ready), but I'd much rather get off at 4 :)

In other news, holy guacamole (with chips please), my 10K is 11 friggin days away! Since I have had little time at the gym, all I have been doing is running since it is coming up so quickly. So I'm going to have to switch my workouts up so it incorporates more running than strength training, just until the 10K. However, I'm going to try leaving a tad bit earlier tomorrow morning for the gym, and see if I can squeeze in an hour again (30 cardio/30 strength training). Wish me luck!!

Stick around - I promise I'll be blogging more like I was, once I find a schedule that works for me :) But for now, I'm exhausted and am out like Ricky Martin (and p.s.- did he really think we didn't know he was gay?!)

C'mon, Ricky.....we knew


Saturday, March 27, 2010

Top of the mornin to ya

Good morning and happy Saturday - By this time next Saturday, I will be thankful for the weekend, since I will one again be part of the millions of people who go to work Monday through Friday :) The thought of working doesn't make me smile, but the $2 pay increase (and money in general), going into my bank account will make me smile. I calculated it and I'll be making about $300 more a month than I was at the last job. Not too shabby if you ask me. Nick and I will be stashing that money. As I have mentioned in a previous blog, Nick is a penny pincher and I LOVE IT! He is always checking our bank account, paying things off as soon as we get money in and we have more money in our account than we have had in MONTHS! Muy bueno!

So get ready to once again hear about another NEW job and it's adventures and quirks. And honestly, I prefer jobs that I have found on my own and not through a hiring agency. Although, my last job in CA that was like that was the CPA firm where my boss turned out to be an embezzler...hmmmm......Update on that though - the local newspaper and news have reported that he is currently on a house arrest sorta deal till his trial, whenever that may be.

Oh and I have to review 2 products for you all (*I was not given any of these products for free or was asked by the companies to do a review- these reviews are based on my own trial and error)

My lower chin, jaw has been breaking out like it's going out of style and I can't figure out why. The only thing I could think of, was I had quit fake and baking (due to money and the whole wants vs. necessity's convo with Nick), and the tanning usually dried them up once they popped up. My diet has not changed in the least bit, and according to one of my good friends who is an Esthitician, it's due to my hormones (I guess that area of your face is connected with them). Since I have been off birth control for about 6 months now, she thinks my body is still getting used to having to produce it's own hormones. My answer to this? Whatever- just want them off my friggin face! It's gross, and I never really have had anything but clear skin. I wanted something that was going to dry those bad boys out and make them wish they never popped up on my face. I remember when I worked at a day spa in Raleigh, there was a product line called Murad, created by a Dr. Murad. They have an acne line that the girls there used to recommend, so I headed to Ulta ASAP. I walked away with:
Murad Acne Clarifying Cleanser

The rating: 9 out of 10. I have only been using it for about 5 days and I can already see a difference. It has a cooling effect when you rinse your face that calms irritation and my face feels so clean afterwards. I use it 1x in the morning after the gym, and 1x at night when I wash off my make up. I will do another review of it in about 2 weeks. This bad boy runs a bit on the expensive side, if your like me who is used to paying $6 for Neutrogena, but this was an emergency and I felt like a hormonal teenager and something needed to be done quick!

Then there is this little gem:

Murad Acne Spot Treatment

I have used this little baby for years whenever a pesky PMS zit would pop up, and it did really well frying the sucker and erasing it from my face in no more than 3 days flat (with continuous use). So about 3 times this week, I have dabbed a bit on my problem areas and slept with it on, and it's done wonders! The zits I've had have gone down noticeably and the redness is disappearing. I'm giving this product a 10 out of 10 because I have used it for so long and know it works.

A few blogs back I was looking for a sunless tanner and Kristen recommended Arbonne Sunless tanner (she sells Arbonne products just FYI) and I thought why not? There was a money back guarantee and it's gonna be a whole lot better for my skin and the whole aging process.

I am rating it a 8 out of 10. Unlike other sunless tanners, I have no experienced the orange tint or the spottiness. It goes on evenly (if applied and rubbed in like you would lotion), and the color last for a good week (I applied it twice over 2 days). My knees, elbows, and ankles have had no issues with the "Darker orange" effect brought on by most sunless tanners. Not only that it, is safe when you are pregnant, which is great for me because I am not one who would do good with being one with nature and going au natural for pregnancy (I know, it sounds vain, but I promise, I'm not THAT vain). The only reason I am not giving it a 10 out of 10 is because it takes a good 40 minutes (At least that's what I experienced), for it to be completely dry. I normally just get out of the shower and spray it on so it has about an hour and a half to dry before I head out to work.

So there you have it ladies - my new favorite products :) Do you have any products you think I should know about? C'mon ladies, whats your favorite must have product?


Friday, March 26, 2010

Blah blah blah

Holy molly am I sore today! Yesterday I did 3 sets of 10 on each leg of split squats and all my other leg exercises followed by a 3 mile run. Today, I am DYING!!!! I went to the gym solo this morning since my beloved has the black lung, and I could barely walk on Tread, let alone jog/run! I did it though - 2 miles and some ab workouts later, I headed home feeling a sense of victory! I worked thru the pain, mua haha!

This morning, yours truly, had a 2nd interview with the people I interviewed with on Wednesday. It went really well, because today....THEY OFFERED ME THE JOB!! WOO HOO!! I will no be a Receptionist at a different company (3rd time's a charm). They offer great benefits (who can complain about 2 weeks vacation and 1 week of sick all paid?), and I couldn't be happier with it. The only kicker? The hours are 7AM-4PM. Now, ideally, I'd be working 8-4, BUT what can you do? What hangs me up, is my workouts. In my opinion, waking up at 4:30 like I do now, is PLENTY early enough, but if I'm gonna have to be at work by 7:00, that means, I gotta wake up at 3:30 to be awake and at the gym by 4(when they open).....I'm not really liking that plan to be honest, so Nick and I talked and I'm switching to after work workouts. Nick said he will go with me, so we don't lose any time together (which was my hangup). So there you have it kids - the job offer we've allll been waiting for :) However, I am still waiting to hear back from another position at the doctors office I interviewed with last Friday, before I make my final decision. I would much rather have the doctors office, but we shall see what's it the cards.


Thursday, March 25, 2010

'Ello loves

'Ello lovelies! Today I woke up and immediately wished I was British. For those of you who don't know me personally, let me fill you in: Ever since I was little, I have wanted to be British. I am absolutely madly in love with England. London in particular

It wasn't until I was about 8 that I learned that there is reason for the madness of England...IT'S IN MY BLOOD!! My dad's mum, my Gma Irene, was born in Blackburn, England and I actually have a lot of extended family there. True, I've never met them, but I'm still claiming my roots!

I have perfected my British accent and love everything and anything England related...some say, I'm obsessed, I say I am obsessed :) The reason for my England ramblings/family history on myself? Today I really don't have much to do. I've gone to the gym, cleaned the place yesterday, sooooooooo I've decided to watch my 2 (MAYBE 3 if I have time) favorite movies that take place in England.

Bridget Jones Diary

Love Actually

and if I have time, Run Fat boy Run

Oh today is going to be a great one and when poor Nick gets home, I may or may not attack his ears with how much I want to go back to England and stay for like 3 weeks so I have time to explore more than just London. Le Sigh...... Have a wonderful day beautiful lovely readers

I am leaving you with what I dream about CONSTANTLY


Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Hump day & more interviews

I am so excited to annouce, that I have ANOTHER interview today at 10 AM! This will be interview #5 (different companies). I am so so blessed to have this many opportunities. Yesterday was an interview with Jenny Craig, and I would rate it a 2 out of 10. The job just isn't what I thought it would be. Today's interview is with a successfull company that provides research and consulting services in applied engineering and economics to clients in utility industry and government. I am hoping to get it broken down a bit in "english" when I get there :)

In workout world, I have been doing really good. Saturday I ran 4 miles and did some abs, Sunday was off, Monday was running 3 miles and upper body & then I went to a yoga class for 1 hour, yesterday Nick joined me at the gym and we both did cardio for 30 minutes (him on Elliptical and I on Tread which was 3 miles for me), and then we did upper body. I haven't gone to the gym YET today, but am heading there after my interview. I am aiming for 3 miles and then doing lower body (WOO HOO!!). It's all freaking me out that I have 18 days until my 10K - I'm more nervous than Tiger Woods at a press conference, but I know I can do this and all I can do is prepare myself as much as possible.

I think I really deserve a reward (besides the obvious acomlishment feeling), after I ocmplete my 10K. I'm thinkning something along the lines of dropping some moolah at Victorias Secret. Spring is here and I LIVE in wedges. I am also thinking about getting a little something for summer and if all goes right, Nick and I will be going to Mexico with my parents in Novemeber :) Here are the two bikini's and other goodies I'm eyeing



Sunday, March 21, 2010


So like I promised, I would tell you all how my interview at the doctors office on Friday went...GREAT! OR at least I think it went great. When I got to the interview, there were 2 other girls waiting for their interview, as well as 1 that came in right before I went in to interview with the manager. So I know the competition will be steep, but the way my interview went and the fact that I got to meet with the actual doctor of the practice (I only saw 1 other girl do that), I think I'm a shoe in :)

When I left the manager I met with gave me her card and said "I'm hoping to make a decision by this afternoon, and will call you on Monday and let you know, but if I don't call you, PLEASE (she said this like it was urgent), call me, it just means, I got super busy". Oh and another good thing that ups my chances? They are actually hiring 2 girls for up front! So I'm actually thinking that me, and the other girl who met the doctor on Friday, will be their choices? I dunno, I'm just thinking positive thoughts.

Tomorrow I have an interview with a HUGE non-profit agency here in Sacramento and I am REALLY excited about that one as well because my hiring agent talked up how they are such a great company to work for and the people on the inside are great. Plus, my benefits would almost like a state employee's benefit package which is always great.

So onto the workout logistics of my life: Yesterday I was trilled with my 4 mile run. I did it in 44 minutes, so it was not a fast run by any means, but it was nice to keep a steady pace and not have to stop. I kept it at 5.9 throughout the whole run and I was hotter than a Lady GaGa video.

Today is mine and Nick's run/ride and we're planning on doing a 10K, EEEEK!! Wish me luck and have a beaututiful day lovelies!!


Saturday, March 20, 2010

Gym, Gym, and more Gym

Good morning and thank GOD it's Saturday!!!!!!

Be back later- off to a 4 mile sweat sesh at the gym then will be back to fill you all in on how the interview went!


Friday, March 19, 2010

Amazing things

So after much thought- I told my boss yesterday that I would pass on her offer to be her daughter's nanny (ie. her personal assistant, which I had no idea was even "the deal", but whatev). There was just too much drama that has occured the last few days, that I think it's best. In fact, today (in about 1 hour), will be the last time I work at this job I'm at currently.

Next order of business- I have antother interview lined up for TODAY!!! SO SO SO happy about this. Nick and I were talking last night at dinner, how it's weird that all of a sudden, I have all of these interviews lined up (4 to be exact). I began to tell him, that I was giving it up to the big J.C., and that I didn't consider it weird, but it was the power of prayer that opportunities have presented themselves. This interview today, I am SO excited about. It's maybe 10 minutes from my parents house, so my mom should most def come meet me for lunch some days (HI MOM :) ), and get this: my dad KNOWS who the doctor is and actually worked with him at the hospital my dad works at. I'm not sayin, just's a crazy coinsidence. So that is at 11 AM this morning.

I couldn't feel more blessed and I'm confident that one out of the 4 job opportunites that have presented themselves, I should get. Here is what the next week for me looks like:

Today: Interview with doctor's office
Saturday (tomorrow): interview with 2 different Curves offices
Sunday: Church and praising God for every door he has opened, even if they close
Monday: Interview with another company
Tuesday: Interview with Jenny Craig office near my house.

Interview, interview, INTERVIEW!!! So as you can see, I have had a great last couple of days. The only negative to all of this, is the awkwardness that has been going on in the office I am currently in and all of the misunderstandings that have happened with the whole nanny position. But- it's okay, I'm fine and I don't want to air the dirty laundry on the bloggie poo, cause you never know who reads these things.

Now. Workouts! Eh, totally lacking working out these past 3 days. I hate to throw the excuse of "so much on my plate right now", but I am. I have to look at "things on my plate" as LIFE. Things happen, good and bad, we get thrown curve balls, but we still have to live and take care of ourselves. Luckily for Nick, I am still showering through all of my crises, HAHA! So tomorrow, it's sleeping in (till the late time of 6:30 no doubt), and after my coffee and Lady Gaga jam session, it'll be off to see Tread at the gym for a good looooong 5 mile run. I am sticking to the outline I created on my post a couple days ago for sure. This 10K is coming up quick! 23 days to be exact! WHEW! Good thing I got amazing weather that makes me want to run.

Stay classy! I'll be sure to post an update on how my interview goes today, later on.


So many things, only 1 post!

Hello lovely people out there! I have SO much to tell you, but unfortunately, I am running late for my last day at my job :) SO SO SO much to fill you all in on, but I will be on this afternoon and post- PROMISE :)



Wednesday, March 17, 2010


It's a beautiful day! The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, I am still being paid for my soon to be ex job, Nick and I have a control of our finances, Daisy is doing SPLENDID and making a total turn around, Kirstie Ally is finally getting that weight off, and.....I GOT 2 CALLS FOR INTERVIEWS TODAY! ALL WITHIN 20 MINUTES OF EACH OTHER! K so let me 'splain-

I got a call from an agent at a hiring agency for a job I applied for on Monster yesterday. So long story short, I called her this morning and she assured me she thinks I would be a great canidate for a few of her open positions and she would like to meet with me ASAP to get all the necessary paperwork done to get the ball rolling on finding a position. Not only is she confident that I could be placed in a position by next week, she thought it would be NO problem making the kind of salary I would like to be making! Naturally, I was jumping up and down and was so ecstatic! Thankfully today is Nick's day off and he was there to watch me actin-a-fool. So I have an interview with her TODAY at 1:30!! I am being 110% open and honest with my current bosses and have told them I have an interview, but will be back (or at least try) before the work day is done.

Theeen while packing my lunch after I got off the phone, the phone rang and on caller ID, the number came up as "1000". Telemarketer (or so I thought). I NEVER answer these sort of things, but I did, and who announced themselves as soon as I said "Hello?". Why a Jenny Craig human resource consultant of course!! They receieved my resume and my questions I filled out online, and want to meet with me on the 23rd at 4pm!! This position would allow me to deal with the one thing I'm passionate about and love talking about: weightloss and healthy living. I know I'd be dealing with Jenny Craig products, and being a counselor sort of person for people who are partaking in the JC program, so I have to do some more research before my interview so I am plenty prepared. I have a feeling I would be making less, BUT it's something I would love doing, so we'll just see how it goes. If Nick gets a higher up job at his company (that he applied to and is confident in getting), then we would be making a significant amount of more money, which in turn would make up for what I wasn't making.

All I'm saying is God is good and provides people! Just 1 week ago TODAY in fact, I was crying, my life was thrown off it's path, I didn't know what the world had in store for me. I still don't due to all the wonderful opportunies presenting themselves, but I know that there ARE opportunies and dispite what my miniature friend says, the sky is NOT falling!

Workout today consisted of nada! Nick and I don't have the same days off, so it was nice to sleep in (till 6am) with him. Since my 10K is fastly approaching, it's time to really get in those miles so here is a sample of my new workout plan that mostly focuses on running.

Sunday: Run/ride with Nick------6.2 miles
Monday: Elliptical for 15 minutes and leg day
Tuesday: Run 3.5 miles and abs
Wednesday: Elliptical for 15 minutes and upper body strength training
Thursday: Run 4.5 miles and abs
Friday: REST
Saturday: Run 5 miles and find a way to squeeze in a nap
= 19.2 miles a week

This is my plan for until April 11th. The week before the race, I will take the miles down a bit of course, as to not strain my muscles or get that "burned out" on running feeling.

Enjoy this GORGEOUS day and I will be sure to blog about my interview with the hiring agency tomorrow AM :)


Monday, March 15, 2010

I'm stronger than yesterday

I'm going to open this blog with a question- do any of you who go to church, notice that when you go, the message always seems to pertain to what is going on in your life at the moment? It ALWAYS seems to happen and I have to laugh to myself and praise God that I came, because I need some help. With all the things that have been going on in my life lately, my soul felt a lot more at ease. The message that was being preached yesterday: DEALING WITH STRUGGLES- HA! Sounds familiar?

Now- back to the nitty gritty. WELCOME TO MONDAY! I am going into this week positive and upbeat and optimistic. I am actively/aggressively looking for a job that will be a great fit into my life and I actually have something that's come up. It's a position for a Health/Weight loss consultant and I have a webinar/phone conference that explains more about it on Tuesday. I'm sort of skeptical of it, just because in the back of my mind, I think it might be one of those scams, BUT I'm trying to be hopeful about it since it would be a great fit for my life and what I would be happy doing. I will be sure to let everyone know how it went on my Wednesday morning post. I have also applied for a consultant position for Jenny Craig near my apartment, and I think that would just be such a rewarding and fun job. A representative will be calling me if I am a match, so say some prayers :)

Not only that, I have a sit down planned with my boss regarding the nanny position for her 2 year old daughter tomorrow, so I will fill you all in on that :) It would really be a great position, but I have 3 reserves:
1. If the pay will be enough. I have a feeling the position would be less than 8 hours a day and if so, I am praying my boss offers me more pay to compensate.
2. My boss is very strict on what her daughter eats (organic, no processed sorta thing, which I can TOTALLY respect since I am conscious of what I eat), and then her sister (who just so happens to work in our office), is very picky on the activities that my bosses daughter partakes in. I have a lot of fun things in mind (parks, trips to the zoo, crafts, etc.), so I'm hoping that I can live up to the standards.
And lastly, I've never been a nanny as a job position. I don't know why the fact that I've never done it before scares me, but I guess it's that unknown/doubting myself that comes out. Truthfully, I think I would ROCK at the position. I don't have a problem with kids and honestly, I have a lot of fun seeing things through kids eyes and just having fun with's the "What ifs" that make me nervous. Like what if the child has a complete meltdown (which COULD and probably will happen at some point) and all she wants is her mom? I just have to take a deep breath and know that it's new, different, and I can do it and to QUIT doubting myself! Can anyone relate? Do you ever doubt yourself? This also pertains to workout out- sometimes when I set out to do a large number of miles on Tread, I doubt that I can finish when I've proved to myself time and time again, I CAN do anything I put my mind to!

Workout today consisted of 2 miles and strength training with my legs. Yesterday Nick (since it's no secret anymore of what his name is :) ), was so worn out from his day at work yesterday (he's on a 8 day straight work week, BLAH!), he opted we rescheduled the run/ride to today. So total, I will have run about 7 miles! WOO HOO!!! Theeeeen we're coming home to Buffalo burgers & sweet potato fries!! MMMMM. I got them at Trader Joes, and Nick has always loved buffalo burgers. Whenever we go to his native Colorado, he gets them whenever he can. It's very rare we find buffalo burgers on the menus here in California. I am actually VERY excited, cause this whole week, Spring will grace us with it's presence. 70 degrees all across the board baby! Even the weekend is lookin uh-mazing! Am I the only one who plans for the weekend to come when it's only Monday?

Have a beautiful, POSITIVE, and amazing Monday gorgeous readers!


Sunday, March 14, 2010

New day and new week

Since that wonderful (laying on the sarcasim) thing we like to call Daylight Savings time is now in full effect, I am up 1 hour earlier, blah!

So Nick has decided to move our run/rides up a day and back to Sundays. Which I really do prefer cause by the time I will get home from work, I'll be tired and not really have that oomf to run 5.12 miles. In fact, he and I were talking about upping the mileage to prepare myself for my 10K, so I'm sure it'll be about 6 miles we run/ride now. You can bet your bottom dollar this little lady will be icing her knees tonight for sure!

Today is my day for clarity in my mind and soul. I'm praying that today at church, the message speaks to me in someway, because I could really use it on how I should approach my options in life. I am also praying for comfort. That God's word today will comfort me and feel me feel safe in the direction I take in my life and that doors will open, and they will be the right doors.

After clearing my mind in church, I plan on clearing my bank account at the grocery store cause we have NO food up in this house! Poor Nick, I was scrounging on what to pack him in his lunch for work today.

Have a blessed Sunday and I hope all my lovely gorgeous readers are enjoying their last day before the weekend!


Saturday, March 13, 2010

Diahrrea of the mouth

Workout today will be 4.5 miles on Tread and who knows after that- maybe some strength training with my legs (MY FAV!).

So- the reason for my absence. I am just going to number the things that have been going on in no particular order cause it'll be easier for me.

#1. On Monday morning, I took my 11 year old baby, Daisy Mae, out to potty like we do every morning (and afternoon, and night), and I noticed she couldn't poop(for a lack of a better word). She would strain and strain and got nothing. I figured she might just be constipated, which would still be odd cause her food hadn't changed at all and she was still drinking a lot of water. So all of Monday she didn't have a bowl movement. Tuesday, the same thing happened when I took her out throughout the day- she would strain would she had to poop and nothing would come out. It was then I noticed a largeish mass on top of her left butt cheek. Being the girl who grew up on 5 acres with tons of animal's that I am, I wasn't bothered one bit to touch it to feel what it was. It was very firm and since Daisy yelped so loud when I did touch it, I could tell it was sensitive to the poor thing. Wednesday morning I called a vet who came highly recommended by friends, and brought her in. After poking and prodding and 1 very painful (to have done and to witness) rectal exam (on Daisy, not me, lol!), the vet said he was concerned it was a cancer mass on her anal glands. Normally a dog her size the anal glands are the size of garbanzo beans (will never look at one the same), and hers are the size of a very small crab apple. Long story short, he took a fluid sample from it and said he would send it off to the lab to figure out if it was just an abscess that was extremely infected or if it was the worst: cancer. You can imagine the state I was in driving home with my baby on my lap, crying and praying and crying and praying and in between sobs telling Daisy how much I love her. The weird thing about this whole thing, is she acts FINE! Other than being more clogged up than a toilet bowl, she is fine- wags her tail, eats fine, drinks fine, plays fine. So that was my Wednesday morning.

#2: I got to work on Wednesday morning around 10:30, when my 2 bosses called me into their office. They had me shut the door (never a good sign), and asked how Daisy was. Well, the whole Daisy thing being so fresh, I started crying (and was so embarrassed), and began to tell them everything. If they could understand me through my sobs, I have no clue, but I told them the story non the less and apologized for the crying. They are the best bosses and were so sympathetic (my 1 boss having 2 mini dauschy's of her own), and didn't seem to mind that I was crying. After I dried my tears and sucked it up, they began to tell me: they were laying me off and were giving me 2 weeks to look for another job (the dears). The began to explain that it was NOTHING that I did (I should hope not, as I think I've bent over backwards trying to prove myself a hard worker), and it was just something they had to do to cut back their expenses because....THEY WERE BEING a HUGE company. I won't say who, just for confidentiality reasons. After them explaining and reassuring me, it was nothing I did, my boss (with the 2 dauchsies), offered me a job as a nanny for her 2 year old daughter. I've met her 2 year old when she's brought her into work, and she is a doll, and her and I get along well (who doesn't get along with a 2 year old?), so she said it was something she wants me to consider. She would match whatever I was making at my current job even. It was just SO much on my plate at once that day: Daisy and my job and possible other job opportunities, that caused me to start cracking. Later in the day, my bosses held a meeting with the whole office and told them the news at that everyone should start looking for jobs, because they all may be going under. I left early that day, and came home to Nick and told him everything. I tried to show him the silver lining (the nanny position) and keep an upbeat positive even though inside I was breaking apart FAST! Wednesday can SUCK it, cause it was horrible.

#3 The lab results came back for Daisy Thursday night- they came back inconclusive which meant that the lab techs couldn't find enough evidence that it was a cancer mass or an abscess. So the vet recommended that he puts her under, and performs surgery to go in there and see what exactly is going on and if it's an abscess, he wants to clean it out. On Wednesday, he sent me home with some antibiotics for her, so that if it was an infection, it could be healed. Well praise God cause Both Thursday night and Friday morning, she took MASSIVE poops. I have never been so happy to have my dog poop and I'm sure my neighbors looked at me like I was crazy, when I was praising Daisy on the lawn for taking a huge dump. And Daisy...she looked relieved! I mean who wouldn't be?! So Friday I called the vet back (After talking with N on Thursday night), and told him to schedule the surgery for 1 week (next Friday), because she was pooping and I wanted to see what happened the next week, before we just go in and do the surgery. The surgery also scares me for these reasons: her being the age she is (Even tho it's young for a dachshund), surgery is a big deal and her body may/may not bounce back from it, and also to do surgery is more money we gotta shell out. Which is fine: we have a dog, we have the responsibility to pay for what they need.

#4- Money is crazy tight right now and while I think that's normal in today's economy, N and I are used to living a lifestyle where it isn't. I don't mean to make that sound like we are rolling in diamonds and wiping our asses with Benjamin's, but in NC, our jobs allowed us to not really have to worry about what we were spending money on. If he wanted a new $50 XBOX game 2 times a month, he could do it, and if I wanted my hair done every other month, I could do it. So the normal day of money stresses had me really down in the dumps. Thankfully, N has decided to take the reigns out of my hands with handling finances (he is SO much better than I), and from what he's told me, his "budgeting" plans seem way better than anything I could think of. Not only that, but he is planning on slowly transitioning us to living on 1 paycheck so when we DO have a baby, we will have a nice little nest egg built up and it won't be such a shock when we are only bringing in 1 person's income.

So there you have it folks, the things that have been stressing me out. On Thursday night, it was really my breaking point and I honestly didn't not like my life at that given moment. I wanted so badly to escape it. It reminded me of the scene in Forrest Gump where Jenny is praying "Dear God, make me a bird, so I can fly far, far far away from here". Everything- the finances, my job, mine and N's security with jobs, Daisy, all just came crashing down, and always being the cheery "it's okay!" positive person, can ware somebody out! My body has been so exhausted, I have to admit, I haven't even gone to the gym in the past 2 days. I'm going today AND tomorrow for sure and then N and I are switching our run/rides to Mondays, so I'll be doing about 7 miles on Mondays. Today I think a nice sweaty run will do me good and cleanse my mind and soul (and burn calories, AY-O!).

The job situation still has me a little stressed out, but I plan on doing a lot of soul searching and thinking if I want to take my boss up on her nanny offer. She wants to talk about it on Monday, so I need to figure it out. Also, yesterday I got a call from a hiring agency I've worked with, and they said there is a position they are submitting me for that's a 4 month contract as a receptionist. The normal lady is on maternity leave and my agent told me that 70% of the time when mothers go on maternity leave, they never come back......I plan on being part of that 70% when my time comes, that's for sure!

Through it all, I have been relying on my faith in God to provide, because He always does and knowing that, I know everything will okay. I have to know He is going to carry me through the dark times, and as a sinner (aka human being), it's hard and it's a struggle at times.

As always thanks for listening, and I promise to be a little more uppity, but since this blog is an online diary, I thought it best to keep it honest and open.


Friday, March 12, 2010

Trust in Him

Just checking in for a brief moment- I just have to keep reminding myself of one of my most favorite verses that brings me comfort

“Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10)

as well as this:

Matthew 6:25
"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? "Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to to his life?"


Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Out of Order for a bit

Hello lovelies-

I have a bunch of stuff going on right now that I'm sure I will fill you in on at some point or another, but for right now, I'm taking a break from blogging. I'll hop on sometime this weekend, PROMISE!


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Pondering and need advice

So here I am at work and can't stop thinking about my baby, Daisy. She is approaching 11 this year and while it is more of a middle name number for a small dog such as herself, it's still getting up there. Last year we had a breast cancer scare with her, and $800 later with tests and antibiotics, we found out she does have a malignant tumor on one of her breasts, but for now, it's not doing her any harm. At the time, there was an infection on it, causing it to enlarge, hence the antibiotics and the vet (who I LOVED), drained it a little and she was as good as new. It was a really tough time for me because I really thought that it was the end and I would have to put her to sleep. I have NEVER EVER dealt with putting any animal to sleep well. I grew up with at least 12 animals at a time (mostly dogs and cats and horses and we had 5 acres, so no- we weren't "those people" with lots of animals in a small space), and putting an animal to sleep did happen (for their own good)& it never got easier to deal with. Anywhoot, needless to say, I was a mess last year when I thought I had to put her to sleep. Since then, the tumor's have stayed the same smallish size and don't seem to bug her.

Now fast forward to present day- she has been acting a wee bit constipated for about a week and a half now, so N and I thought we'd change her food. BUT, the other day I took her out to go potty, and while I was watching her strain to "poo" (for a lack of a better word), I noticed a medium-large size bulge on her left buttcheek (do dogs have butt cheeks?). After she was done with her business, I examined the bulge and I could tell it is an irritant to her. She is constantly licking down there and she just seems like it hurts her and I am positive her straining to go the bathroom and that lump are connected. She hasn't eaten anything abnormal or largish (to my knowledge) that could get stuck in her stomach, but I still googled "Canine bowl obstruction". The symptoms don't match anything with how she's feeling, so I am so confused.

My dilemma is this: I don't have $800 to drop on vet bills for her to get surgery/xrays/blood tests. Even the vet last year told me that surgery on a dog her age would be risky. However, she is my baby and I'm not going to neglect her, so should I take her to a vet? In the end, I think it'll be best for her, because this lump isn't going away. I'm just nervous she might have to have surgery on whatever it is, and I am going to feel so cold when I have to say "I'm sorry, I just can't afford it".

What do you guys think? Any suggestions?


We are underway

Workout this morning was 3.23 miles on Tread with an average pace of 5.9 so you know I was sweatin! My shins and knees are feeling a tad bit worn out from Sunday's run/ride with N, so I really need to stick to my icing every night when I get home from work.

It's already Tuesday! YESSSS!! I love love LOVE Tuesdays! All my shows are on Tuesdays and it gives me something to look forward to when I'm getting ready in the morning because there is no way in heck that I will watch a show LIVE (so spoiled, I know). But I can't help it...I mean, do I really need to watch 1 more birth control commercial? Um, I don't think so!

That's all I got for today and I do apoligize for the lack of posts. Just haven't had much to talk about :-/ but I PROMISE tomorrow will be a fun filled blog!


Sunday, March 7, 2010

Remember these bad boys?

Back when myspace was ever so popular, we had these surveys constantly! It's good fun and since I have nothing better to do, I present to you, MY survey!!

1. How old do you look?
I think I look my age (23). I am hoping to slow my aging process down a bit by my new found habit of NOT using the cancer boxes (aka tanning beds) anymore.

2. Where do you live?
Currently I live in the city I was born and raise for the first 3 years of my life & the state capital of California..Sacramento

3. Are you waiting for something?
the only thing I am waiting for is my headache to go away. I cleaned the house, and I MAY have inhaled one too many cleaning products and I tried to nap the headache away and I had no luck

4. What’s one pet peeve of yours that is not common?
Hmmm...I hate it when people chew with their mouths open and you can hear their food smacking in their mouths, but I think that's a common pet peeve. I guess my most uncommon one would be when N leaves the lights on in the early morning. When I first wake up, I like to ease into lights and just being awake. N on the other hand feels it necessary to turn on all the lights in the place.

5. Do you want/have kids?
I have 1 11 year old daughter named Daisy Mae, but she's my fur baby. N and I do want kids and are in the mind of it'll happen when it's supposed to happen

6. Have you ever thought about converting your religion?
Never. I'm a firm Christian and have no plans on switching. I was baptised on May 5th of last year and have a very strong relationship with my Savior

7. Last shocking news you heard?
That Brittany Murphy died- I was in serious shock.

8. What was the last thing you drank?
Some water in hopes of getting rid of this headache

9. Who do you most look like in your family?
I have ALWAYS been told I look like my dad's mom. I guess I can see it a tad

10. If you could have something right now, anything, what would it be?
1 million dollars

11. Where does most of your family live?
California- which is why N and I moved back from NC- plus we just weren't too fond of NC

12. Where did you grow up?
Shingle Springs, CA

This is the road you go on the way to my house-it's a perrrtty drive

13. Where do you want to go on vacation?
I REALLY want to go back to London and stay for a month or 2 and travel to the countryside (Blackburn) where my gma (the one who I look like) was born.

14. Have you ever had a panic attack?
I think I've had minor ones before

15. What can’t you wait for? weekend so another week of work is done? haha

16. Have you ever smoked?
I have tried. I am an asthmatic and back in the HS days when EVERYONE was doing it, I wanted to be cool, but the asthma got the best of me so I stopped

17. Want someone back in your life?

I can't really think of any friends that I've "lost" or regret losing touch with.

18. What do you order at the bar?
Margaritas!! On the rocks with salt-skinnygirl style please :)

19. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Hmmmm, probably a month ago?

20. Ever licked someone’s cheek?
Almost daily....poor N

21. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
I don't eat PB anymore, but I eat Almond butter, and my FAVORITE is that on an english muffin with honey drizzled on it

22. Where were you on July 4th, 2008? a BBQ probably

23. What are your nicknames?
Kar, and my mom calls me karlita and karli-arly or karzie

24. If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
Just to relive moments I'd go back to: 5th grade-loved everything about that year, when N proposed- one of the best days of my life, the day N came back from Iraq and we hugged for the 1st time in 8 months- sparks flew I swear!

25. What is something you are passionate about?
Fitness and nutrition (or at least I try to be)

The end!